The pits of despair!!

Psalm 40:2
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.


  While reading this verse I was reminded of The Princess Bride. It brought a smile to my face. Who doesn't love The Princess Bride? I thought it interesting that he says to Wesley " Don't even think about escaping" He basically tells him that it is impossible. How many time do we feel like we are in a pit of despair with no way out? But remember Wesley does get out. Don't listen to what other people think. Don't even listen to your self doubt. Look to the Lord. He will lift you out and set your feet on solid ground.

Earnestly seeking, running the race marked out for me.

 Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Hebrews 12: 1-3  let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, ² fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ³ Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.


Jesus is the perfecter of faith. He endured more than we can ever imagine and yet he presented himself blameless and without sin. I need to run the race marked out for me. Jesus has the road map to my life and all I have to do is ask for directions.

Create in me a PURE heart.

Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, oh God and renew a steadfast spirit within me.



  I started off my devotional today focused on the key word "hope".
Psalm 33:18
But the eyes of the Lord are on  those who fear Him, on those who hope in His unfailing love.

But for some reason I kept finding the word "new". Sing to Him a "new" song, a "new" hope, re"new" my strength. I love how the Lord carefully guides my time with Him. I want Him to do so much for me but am I doing my part. Am I presenting a new person to Him? A person He can mold both inside and out. Create in me Lord. A new heart, a pure heart. Is my heart pure? Even if I don't say things that are on my mind they are still infesting my heart. So Lord I give it all to You, do what you wish and mold me into the person You want me to be!!!!

Don't listen to the naysayers.

While studying Job this morning I came across this verse.
Job 6:8 Oh that I might have my request, that God would give me what I hope for.

He said this while in the midst of his friends who all told him to turn away form God. If you are not familiar with Job let me sum it up for you.

"Job is a man who is wise,  

rich, and good. Then suddenly  

terrible things happen to him. 

His ten children are killed. 

He loses all his wealth. And 

he becomes ill with a painful 

skin disease. 

Three friends come to visit

him, and they try to explain 

to Job why these bad things

have happened. They tell job  

that sin caused his suffering 

and God was punishing him.

Job insists it is not true,

but no one believes him. Job 

becomes very discouraged and 

angry but he still believes  

God cares about him, although 

he don't understand why he

must suffer so. 

In the end, God answers Job in a whirlwind, reminding him that

humans can never understand how great God is."

So you can see that it was hard for Job to have hope when his three friends kept telling him to give up. The Lord also gives him everything back his health and more wealth and children. No matter what this world does to us, the Lord is always in control. He will never leave us or forsake us.

Those who hope in the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.


   Those who HOPE. Oh how I hope. The bible says my strength will be renewed. He will make it like it was before. I like the verse before this too. Even youth grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall BUT those who HOPE in the Lord will renew their strength!!!! I will be stronger than the the youth with the Lord. Will I have more energy than my children? If I HOPE in the Lord. I can face anything. He is creator of everything and I can overcome this. I have to stop feeling sorry for myself. If the Lord made me this way than He knows what I am up against. He knew I would be at this point right now. He also knew that I could defeat this!!!! Let my HOPE be in the Lord and let my strength be renewed today.

Friday, April 6, 2012

      While researching our upcoming trip to Gatlinburg I realized there are certain things i will not be able to do because of my weight. Horseback riding, white water rafting and ziplining. Not to mention if I want to go to a waterpark and look somewhat presentable. Don't get me wrong, I do not care what people think of me in a bathing suit. I love to swim and refuse to be embarassed. But after a recent outing and seeing the photos that followed I am utterly disgusted. How did I become this big? I know that PCOS has a lot to do with it. I have my Grandmothers genetics and she weighed 300 pounds. That excuse can only go so far though, I need to this for myself, my children, my husband and my Lord.

I have 28 weeks to loose 54 pounds. Can I do it? Will I give up? I can't, this has to be the last straw!!! No more excuses!!!

My Plan:

Start each day with the Lord. ( Only He can help me with this )

Back to veganism. ( This is the only thing I have seen results with)

I will take my weekends off to eat cheese and dairy.

Excercise at least 30 minutes a day.

Blog every day!!!

The countdown starts tomorrow.

28 weeks

196 days

I can do it!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

My Jesus.

I think everyone has their own view of Jesus. How He looks, what He means to you.
I was searching through pictures of Jesus on the internet and for some reason this one struck me. I stared at it for a long time. I could almost see Him smiling at me. Now, none of us reall know what He looks like but it is nice to picyure Him and have an image in your mind. My Jesus is my Father, my protector, my advocate, my healer, my friend, my comfidant, my refuge in the storm, my shoulder to cry on. This picture to me looks like that man. I just want to lay my head on His shoulder and tell Him all my problems. What does Jesus look like to you?