Holy Baby Fever Batman!!!!

Those who don't know I had a total of three miscarriages. It was a tough thing to get through. Sometimes even after 4 years it still breaks me open. I wonder sometimes if I had three and had that little girl if I would still have that longing. I get really upset with these Chrisitans who push the "Natural Family Planning" thing and advocate for no BC. I am on birth control because of my PCOS. I am sorry but having  had three miscarriages, one being twins and one resulting in a horrible D and C, I am not in the mood to "throw away" any more babies . That is exactly how I felt after my third. Once again, do not presume to know me or what I have been through. I still hear people say, "Well if you want another so bad just let it happen." These babies were part of me and  there is still a hole where their void is. I am not in any rush to do that again.
So anyway, craving the baby smell lately and the baby fingers and the breast feeding/bonding.Doesn't help that I work in the NICU. I am so thankful for where I am and the two beautiful children I have but........will this longing ever go away?

Normal Believer, Normal Mom

I will not preach at you, I will not tell you how to live your life. I have strong convictions and will stick to them but I don't  believe in "scaring people away". For starters I do not homeschool my children. To address this point I first want to say that one of my best friends does and I think she is doing an amazing job. ( Kudos to you Nichole) My children go to public schools and I don't think that is wrong. They are getting a very good education at a high quality school. We must live Christ out in the real world people, not shelter our children. I do believe homeschooling is good for certain people but do not presume I am a bad mother because I work and my kids got to school. I will not judge you so do not judge me!
Second, I want to say let's please stop beating people with our bibles. I grew up in the church and probably know every bible story to a T but I do not shove it down people's throats. If you want to know anything just ask me. If you want to know " peace that surpasses all understanding" just ask. I rely on God, I talk about God, I even talk about scriptures but I will never speculate where you are coming from, what paths you have walked, what beliefs were given to you as a child or even what circumstances have made you who you are. Only God can know how complex you are. Only He can shine a light in those places. I can simply be available when He chooses to use me.
And lastly, MOMS, please don't judge other moms. It's hard enough to get through our kid's lives without screwing them up somehow. Let's stand beside each other. Let's support each other. Let's get through the mud and the muck in our mommy four wheel trucks together!!!!!
Love to all  of you!

Just so you know....

I am not a perfect mother and never claimed to be. I am not a perfect wife, my husband and I do get in arguments ( I know shocking). I am not a bible beater, although I am a Christian and will probably post some scripture references. I am not a oraganized person, although I wish I could be. I am not a size 0, or even a size 2,4, 6 or 8. I am not a well educated woman,( graduated high school and some college) I do believe my parents and my life have educated me very well though. I will never claim to be something I am not and I will never be false or fake about anything. This is me! Take it or leave it. When it is all said and done what will your legacy be?